Thursday, November 24, 2005
my cute little nephew! raenen! aww~ loves! :D
and i pray that it'll be okay..today is thursday. i have ballet at 6.30. again..
dun feel like going le.. i
dun like intermediate. i rather go for
grade 6 class.. i love romantic styles.
today is thursday. im supposed to give my brother tuition. 1 hr. should i just give one shot 2 hrs? nah.. dun think so. my brother have a
very short attention span.
today is thursday. i think cher's working.. hmm.. maybe i should just go
help her, since i did not yesterday. but i gotta wait for her to reply. and she's not replying. ha..
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today is alread thursday. and i have not started on any homework. hmm. do i even remember what i've got? please kind samaritans, remind me if i did.
HOLIDAY HOMEWORK. =/english;#1: commonwealth esaay.
#2: subscribe to
www.thefreedictionary.com- write down 3 words + 1 quote each week [for 6 , weeks]. find a personal quote to share.
#3: vocabulary exercise 78, 79, 80, 92.
chinese;#1: chinese assesment [whole book].
#2: bao zhang du hou gan.
#3: lian xi 1, 2, 3.
#4: bedok view sec paper.
#5: xin min sec paper.
emaths;#1: holiday assignment.
amaths;#1: holiday assignment.
#2: mr. lee's assignment.
that should be all. (: i shall start doing today.. since i'll be at home the whole day. ha.
oh. cher replied. she's ill. that means that she's not working. take care girl..
i shall do the subscription now. since im online.
chill people.
Monday, November 21, 2005
hey pple. im back..
its been a long week. and there's many stuff running through my tiny mind.
so many things, now, seem to be
temporary. blink you eyes, and it's all gone. and this leaves you behind with this "what has happened?" kind of mentality. clearing up the messes of life is just what everyone must learn to do. don't just leave it there and hope that it will go away, or hope that it will just keep rotting until it disappears. it will not happen if you start to realise.
this makes me wonder. what in the world is then long-lasting. the un-wavering feelings and things? what are those?
ok. im getting all crappy and stuff. well, tmr will be a sakae lunch-cum-teabreak buffet with cher, han, vane and joey? followed by the closing night of tabernacle series. its gonna be
good.but first. i need moneh. hah.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
i just hope what happened yesterday was a nightmare..
total nightmare..i hate myself. i hate myself for pretendin to be happy, but deep inside feeling hurt. the more i tried to be happy, the worse the pain grew. ha. silly me.. i can smile and laugh so hard until i roll on the floor, but the more happy i got, the worse my heart got. i hate my pretense. and myself.
how will it feel like? everything will change i guess. everything. the hurt, is gonna stay there long. and i mean long.. i've learnt that, the more u love, the more painful it'll be..
yesterday was a dream... wasn't it?
Saturday, November 12, 2005
regret-filled.
sorry. my sincerest sorry. i really wasnt tryin to blame u, or push the whole blame to u. i admit. i have to take some of the blame too. but i just need to know why. what was causing all these. you get what i mean? i admit. the other day i was a bit harsh and chong dong. but i just got really mad and decided to blabber something. this was what that came out. so do you know how much this means to me? the friendship. i know. no one in the right mind will do this. when things get complicated, people tend to write things that are not at all sensible and obviously, i wasn't thinkin straight. and i sincerely apologise. dont think that i feel good when things get in this way. i don't feel good, and i know you don't too.should we just release each other from the pain? i never wan our friendship to end. but since things are like that now, i just hope that through this, the bond will grow stronger and harder and more resistant to any other external or internal pressure.please. just once more.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
im bloggin now because i can no longer stand this..
you all really were part of my life. but as i've said, i'm wat i am because you all made me what i am today. i'm doing this today is because i cannot take it anymore. if i ever turn myself away from you, you know it. you chose it. i am not you dog. whenever you like, you treat me like a princess. but at other times, you spit at me as if u never knew me. put it simply, you treated me as though i was a pile of shit. yes. PLEASE. stop it. and i mean it. stop pretending. i beg you. if you're gonna just stay like that, i rather you tell it straight into my face. lets not walk in circles. its gettin worse and worse by the day. up till the point that i dun even wan to speak to you. speaking to you will make myself mad. why should i torture myself.. go ahead and continue with your lies. I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE. everyone has limits. and you met mine. HOW I WISH THAT YOU CAN KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE. to be in a diff class, having diff activities everyday. i really WISH you WILL UNDERSTAND how it feels. really. i made an effort and you just wiped it off your face. can you at least try? try to make an effort to improve our relationship? no. you did not. will you ever do it? writing this, i feel so desperate. and i think, i should just stop it. THANK YOU for making me what i am today.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
had a great time with rev. dr. robb thompson on saturday night service. he is one man who thinks deep enough to throw u with the slightest thing you've ever really sat down and thought about. he talked about relationships and the kind of friends that we should have. this is wat he said:
#1: the outcomes of life is completely dependent upon the types of relationship you pursue.if you hang around turkeys, you'll never be an eagle.
#2: i would rather you hate me for telling you the truth than for you to love me for telling you lies.true friends should be the ones who will tell the truth.
the proof of love is the willingness to
CONFRONT. a true friend will be someone who will be willing to confront your enemies. not one who joins in the gossip when someone else is bad mouthing you. sounds familiar? not two-faced. but standing up for you.
#3: if a person does not receive your words, they do not qualify for your time.the more time you give to the people who are not willing to listen, the less time you have for those who are willing to.
#4: if any relationship does not give birth to change, then any further association is unnecessary.if its not going to make you stronger, its going to
cripple you.
#5: never allow the invitation to intimacy to be destroyed by the contempt of familarity.never take things as it is. just like the invitation to get yourself a drink in your friend's place. do not take it for granted.
#6: the productivity of any relationships is completely dependent upon the standard it upholds.#7: poverty is not the lack of money. poverty is the proof of misguided money.the love of money is the root of all evil.he also said something like the friends we have:
-must be committed to long-lasting relationships
-must have empires in the brains
-must be sower
who would want a friend who wants to ONLY receive all the time?sower breeds sower.-must qualify for my seed.
my friend must qualify for the things i give.-must prize integrity above relationship
-must be willing to confront my enemies.
rev. robb thompson is a great thinker. some of the quotes he said that i like particularly..
the biggest fool is one the fools himself.
face it. guys lie, but girls love to be lied to.
problems continue beacuse we continue to listen.
i totally love his deep thoughts..
leave you with something he said that changed me.
we didn't get where we were ourselves. if you're not in mental torment, it is people that helped keep you there. but if you are, it is people who brought you there. i didn't become the constance i am by myself. be it good or bad, its family and friends that made me who i am today. thank you. thank you very much..
